i am dreading the fact that July is only a week away. I will forever hate the month.
In one week I will celebrate the fact that Blake and James; my first borns, will be 8. But instead of throwing a party here tossing water ballons, or doing silly string, or a pinata, or taking a day off of work to play I will be visiting their grave site.
Then 10 days after that i will be reminded that one year ago we found out that we had lost Jackson and the journey we went through to get Kamryn here safely.
I know, I know..... we are so lucky to have what we do. But I still can't help to think about the fact that within 10 days I will be mourning the loss of 3 of my babies. It just doesn't seem fair. Even still after 8 years. They are still an ever present part of my life and who I am.
I love you boys.
Sorry you are going to face such a difficult month. The loss of a child is one that you can never forget no matter how many years. Take care of yourself and I will be thinking of you and your baby boys that should be here with you.
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ReplyDeleteJuly will not be a favorite month here either when we found out about Landon. Will be thinking of you as you mourn your 3 boys as we mourn ours. We do check their site for you too when we go to see Landon :)
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