Saturday, April 30, 2011

The beginning

I have thought about starting a blog for a long time. And it is finally happening. Where to start?

The beginning.

I married my best friend and love of my life Ryan in May of 2003. We knew that we didn't want to wait to long to start a family and started trying shortly after. It seemed like it took forever but in March of 2004 we found out that we were finally pregnant.

Our world was turned upside down the day we went in for our 5 month checkup. Our doctor could not detect a heartbeat. So we were sent in to the hospital for an emergency ultrasound. What we learned was shocking and devastating. We were pregnant with TWINS but they had gone to Heaven before us. We went through labor and delivery and gave birth to perfectly formed identical twin boys who had Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome. Blake Hunter and James Bridger were born on July 2, 2004 and our world was rocked.

Remembering that God has a plan for everything we were later blessed with sons Caden Carl on June 13, 2005 and William Lee on April 13, 2007. Knowing that we wanted more kids we started trying for a 5th beginning of 2009. After a year of nothing we were referred to a fertility specialist where we found issues on both myself and Ryan and were told that we would not be able to have any more kids naturally.

So on to alternative methods we went. Trying Clomid and IUI's for months upon months did nothing so we moved on to IVF. Our first cycle in November resulted in a negative. With one more shot we used our remaining 3 embryo's for a FET. 2 of the 3 embryo's made it through the thawing process and on March 16th (my birthday) I received the best present ever. We were able to transfer 2 potential babies.

Well that is what we got and that is where we are right now. Pregnant once again with TWINS and scared out of our minds. And yet feeling blessed beyond belief knowing that we are not walking this journey alone. God is Good all the time.