Saturday, October 6, 2012

Day 6

Day 6 : What NOT to say. (note the massive amounts of sarcasm in the captions) If you are ever surrounded by someone who loses a child.... dont say any of these. If you don't know what to say.... nothing is way better than something that can come across rude or insensitive.

this is what we were told when we lost Jackson. Apprarently only losing one baby means that you shouldnt be sad.

We would have never been able to love them if something was wrong. So it was a blessing that they were taken from us.

(i can't figure out how to spin this one) I must have issues with being busy or working hard for my kids and that is why God took them away from me. Cause people said they didnt know how we would be able to handle it.

I fogot a different one too.... the ever impressive....  well you can always try for more. I dont even need to follow up further on that one.

Friday, October 5, 2012

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

As many of you know October is an important month for people like me. We dont need reminders of our loved ones. But it is nice to have a reason to remember and celebrate what they mean to us. notice i say mean not meant.

I was given this link from an old friend whose brother and sister just lost a baby. She said they were going to take part and thought it might be something i would be interested in. Now I have not spoken to this girl very much since high school. But the fact that she sent this to me really brought tears to me. So grateful....

So i am a few days behind and have not had a chance to take a picture of a sunset so i am just going to use the picture from her blog.....

So day 1:

Day 2: a picture of myself before my loss
Day 3: a picture of myself after loss ( i know it isnt a picture of me personally, but without Ryan and my kids i would be nothing. They make me - Me.)

Day 4: a Treasured Item- this is my tote that I have all of my "memories" from my three angels. Hospital blankets, the bracelets from Blake, James, and Jackson, pictures, books, cards, emails, and so much more. If anything ever happened to this, I don't know what I would do.
Day 5: Memorial - I have a few plants that we were given in memories of our babies.... Some Tiger Lilies, a peace lily, some blue hydrangea's, and so much more. I don't have any pictures that I can find right now though other than the peace lily. see post here....;postID=5896536962318309171





Tuesday, October 2, 2012

i think i could cry.....

from being so proud of my boys.

Every day on the way to school we pray together asking for a good day, safety, to listen and obey, and they will bring up things that they have heard about or seen. Well today was no different. On our way to school we passed a house on our street who had a tree that dropped a TON of leaves. It is a home where an older lady lives alone. (can you see where i'm going with this?)

Well my Caden says "mom we need to pray and we should pray for her". So we did. As soon as we were done he yells..... I have an idea! Let's go rake her yard tonight. That way she won't have to do it. Great idea buddy! So we get home tonight, had dinner, then headed outside. Our neighbor kids were outside as well and wanted to come help. So Ryan and I and the 3 kids (Kam didnt help much but wanted to be involved) along with our neighbor Eric and his 3 kids all trekked down the street carrying our rakes.

We got to the yard and the kids did so INCREDIBLE! They were raking fools. And Mrs. Dolores came outside asking what church we were with. And was quite surprised when I told her that we weren't from a church but lived down the street and that it was our 7 and 5 year olds idea to come help her out. She was so happy she even called the local paper and tried to get someone down to do an article on us. At which point Ryan and Eric said they would run and leave the kids behind with me. Nice huh? :) We told her that we didn't come to get anything out of it but that the kids wanted to help. She said she had to do something and brought each of them a dollar. Talk about perma grins on 6 kids.

The boys kept saying that they loved being a good samaritan. I'm so proud.

I can't believe i didnt have my camera or phone to take a picture though. :(