until tomorrow.....

well we had our appointment this morning and things are still a waiting game. Our weekly Ultrasound/ AFI/ Placenta check followed by the Non Stress Test is every Wednesday and Saturday. So instead of trying to switch everything around to today we just left it as is.

While we are concerned about the fluid level our doctor here did say that he has seen much worse. And while we want to be cautious we are also doing the right thing by being monitored so closely already.

So tomorrow it is.... a day that I am praying/assuming will go just fine. :)

late update...

Oops... I guess I was so worried about remembering the Pregnancy and Infant Loss day that I forgot to update from my testing on Saturday.

I went by myself and was told that from now on that would be a big no-no. While baby girl is looking great they are not real impressed with my amniotic fluid levels still. I was told that the danger zone was anything less than 8 and I had dropped from a 9 to a 7.9. So they are more concerned. I was supposed to have a week off of doctors visits but got stuck on bedrest having to drink gallons upon gallons of water until Tuesday when my doctor will be in. So moving forward I cannot go by myself because it could be "anytime" and I'm not allowed to walk in or out of the hospital due to the contractions increasing.

While all of this is highly concerning I almost feel like the boy who cried wolf. I keep being told anytime.... anytime.... anytime. And then I make it another week with another issue that comes up.

I just hope that baby girl is ok. That is all that matters.

Times 3....

One wick for each of my angels..... I Love You!!!

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

A Good Day!

I went in for another round of testing today. I got to have an ultrasound where they checked baby girl out and also looked over the amniotic fluid and something with the umbilical cord and placenta. I was a little shocked when the nurse told me that the notes on my chart showed my amniotic fluid was low. No one said anything to me!!! But I figured since I hadn't heard from the doctor yet they must not be too concerned.

Next she started taking lots of pictures and measurements. I love watching her moving all over the place! She definitely has a lot of fire in her and doesn't like to be poked and prodded. Everytime they try to do stuff with her she starts going crazy and it takes twice as long. Maybe it's God's way of letting me watch her longer. Anyways.... the nurse then told me that she was still measuring about a week behind but that her weight was up to around 3lbs 12 oz. WOW.... last week she was at 3lbs even. But it did show that it could be +/- 9oz. I'm going to ignore that I saw that and pretend that she put on almost a full pound in a week. :)

Still having lots of contractions but seems that things are holding steady for this week. I'll take it.

Disheartened.....

Just wanted to give another update from our appt this morning in grand rapids….

Things did not go as well as we would have liked. Big Shock hugh? Sorry for the negative attitude.

anyways..... We went in for our growth check and found that baby p. has dropped into the 5th percentile and is still measuring about 2 weeks behind. So the doctor is much more concerned. Our plan of action now is that I will go into the hospital 3 times a week for some Non-Stress Tests and also to check the umbilical cord and make sure that the blood flow is ok.

We were essentially told that we needed to go home and pack a bag and put/keep it in the car. Cause if the test shows any type of distress from here on out we will be sent right to grand rapids and they will take her out.

It was encouraging to hear that at this point we have a 95% chance of bringing baby home some time. Even if it isn't right away. But not knowing what will happen is a little disheartening. He also said that keeping her in too long would be tempting fate and that is when the possibility of her being stillborn or having lots of complications would come into play. I was also told that a c-section is a good possibility. Because he didn't know if she would be able to handle being born naturally. So still a lot of unknowns....

But we are trying to trust the One who gave her to us.

We still covet and appreciate all your prayers!

Thankful

We met with our small group tonight. It always amazes me how lucky we are to have them around. We met for the first time over 7 years ago and they have been there for us in ways that I cannot even begin to explain. Starting as a group shortly after we lost Blake and James they know alot about us and our journey to parenthood. Both past and present.

Tonight the couple who hosted suggested that we pray over each couple and specifically their struggles and praises. So 5 couples all on a different road right now. And each of us laying hands to pray over them, or being blessed to be the couple who was blessed to have such close friends praying over you. Definitely an emotion / incredible night that I will never forget.

I'm so thankful to a God who knows exactly what we need and when. Trying to put on a "good front" tonight was not an option. Even though I prayed to keep it together and be strong beforehand. So I was glad to be around people who I felt comfortable just letting it all out in front of. Cause lets face it.... It's Still Hard. And i'm sick of having to pretend it isn't.

On a side note.... we meet with our specialist tomorrow. I'm praying that Baby P has put on some extra weight so we don't have to worry so much.