Her First....

Well Kamryn has had her first sickness. The past week she has been very congested and we could tell she finally caught the cold the rest of us had been battling. We were so excited that she avoided the flu bug. On Tuesday she had green goop coming out of her eyes so I called the dr. on Wednesday morning and made an appointment for that afternoon. She had been eating and sleeping great and wasn't fussy. We got into the office and I was told that she had a sinus infection and a raging ear infection. I'm so glad that she had that goop or I never would have thought to bring her in and she could have been miserable.

She continues to amaze me with her toughness. :)
and now weighs 10lbs 11 oz.

This weekend we are going with Ryan's family to a hotel to spend a night with everyone. Should be a good time. And I promise I will get some sort of pictures posted soon.

2 Months

I can't believe how far behind I am already!!! But being back at work means less computer time. Because when I get home I'm playing with the kids then after bedtime I try to gain control back over the house. And it seems like a lost cause. But worth every minute. :)

But Kamryn had her 2 month check up and all is looking great!
She weighed 8lbs 13 oz
And she has grown 3 inches and is now at 21.

She is still just a little peanut but seems gigantic now since when we brought her home she was only 4lbs and 13 oz. The boys are still crazy about her and have been such big helpers.

Caden is in basketball camp right now and loves it. And William continues to keep us on our toes in all that he does. I get to be the helper in his class tomorrow which should be interesting.

But that is it for now. Kamryn is ready to get out of the shower (which she has LOVED since day one) so that is it for tonight. I promise I will get some more updates and pictures up soon.

UGHHHHHH.

I cannot believe how long it has been since I posted. And this is going to be a short one too. I promise I will get around to posting about the holidays soon.

BUT..... since I have to go back to work TOMORROW I am going to spend as much time with my kiddos as possible. I never thought I could be a full time stay at home mom but now that the kids are older and in school and Kamryn is going to be our last baby - I cant imagine going back to work. Since Ryan is self employed though I have to carry the insurance for the family. So I just don't know how that is an option right now.

I am so thankful that my maternity leave fell within the holidays. I was able to have so much time with all the kids at home and it was a blast! And even though there were days I felt I did nothing but run them back and forth to school it was still a time I cherished.

So here is hoping that someday we win the lottery so I can stay home. Or that someone passes a law for stay at home moms to be paid and get insurance. :)

Pictures

I have a guy that I work with whose wife is new to photography. She offered us a free session at our house to be done shortly after Kamryn was born. She wanted to a more natural type setting in a home with everyone. How do you pass that up? And I am so happy with how the pictures turned out! The boys weren't real cooperative as they both wanted to sit by Kamryn and couldn't so they got mad and we didn't get as many with all of us as we wanted. But they are still incredible. Here is a preview of a few of them.

Due Date

Today is the official due date for Jackson and Kamryn. I cannot begin to explain how glad I am that we did not have to wait til today.

While I am sure that Jackson is having a great time where he is, I can only assume that Kamryn feels the same way.  :)
She is doing so great! The boys are still in love with her. And she continues to heal us. It is not in a way that we will ever forget the journey it took to get her here or the loss that we encountered. But it is still in a way that we are grateful for.

Kamryn is a great baby. She is not fussy and is very content. She even sleeps really well so far. Only getting up once at night now that we don't have to wake her every three hours. If all our babies were like her I don't think I would ever stop having them. (if we could get prego on our own that is. HA!)

We are so blessed by Caden, William, and Kamryn - THANK YOU GOD!!!

Sweet Angels....

Today we buried our sweet Jackson. And it went as well as I could have hoped for. It was Ryan, Myself, Caden, William, and Kamryn. And of course the angels surrounding us.

My sister Lynn was so great and handled most of the details for us with the funeral home. And her and the funeral guy Steve pulled some strings and got permission for us to have Jackson buried in the same plot as Blake and James. Something that they apparently don't do normally. How sweet that we will be able to go to one stop and be able to spend time with all 3 of our babies.

Ryan and I spent quite a bit of time prepping the boys on what to expect and what the plan was. We pulled up to find the cemetary guy Bob and Steve already there waiting for us. When I pulled up behind Steve's white lincoln Caden asked me if the president was there to say goodbye to Jackson too. Talk about perfect timing. I was just about to lose it and he says that to put a big smile on my face.

We sat in the four chairs put out for us and just had some time to ourselves. Caden said a prayer for his brothers which was so sweet and then Ryan also prayed. Caden wanted to put the casket into the ground and Will put a blanket over top of it that my mom had made.  I cannot believe the amount of love I have for them. Makes me realize I will never fathom how our Maker feels about us. And that no matter how far I feel from him, He will never let me go. The boys did so great and asked questions that were so insightful for kids their age.

I think my favorite one was from Caden..... "Did God ask you PLEASE when he took Jackson"?

Once we get the headstone out there I plan on taking pictures with our 3 earthly babes with our 3 heavenly ones.

Bittersweet.....

Next Monday.....

Well I finally did it. I had been putting it off as long as possible just because it would make things so final.... so over.... so unchangeable.

Today I went and signed the papers and made plans for Jackson's burial. We will be laying him to rest on Monday. When I say "we" I mean Ryan and the boys and I. When we gave birth to Blake and James we invited our entire families. And were surrounded with so much love it was overwhelming. But this time we are just going to have it be us. After talking with Ryan he said he didn't think he would be able to handle having a bigger service type burial again. And I know that for some family members it would be hard to be present to see that tiny little coffin put into the ground right next to our other kids.

It is hard to know how to feel today. Right before I went to the cemetary I brought Kamryn into the doctor for her weekly checkup. And she is looking great! She is up to 5lbs 12oz. Up 9oz from last week. That is awesome. And she is doing so well.

I leave from a Kamryn high to a Jackson low....